这些日子真累。。开始不知道努力是为了什么。。
有时候真的很想放慢脚步，好好的享受我的人生。。
可是我知道，这是不可能的。。
打从和政府签了“卖身契”之后，我就没有这种权利去想这些。。
我只有读书的选择。。
哦不。。是努力读书才对。。
难得放假的一天。。我却坐在堆得高高的书堆前，算着我所仅有的时间和要完成的课业。。
结果后者是多过前者的。。haiz。。。
回想起我的中学日子。。是多么的多姿多彩。。
那时候，读书对我来说没有那么负担。。
那时候，我是真的喜欢读书的。。
可是现在。。。
读了整天，头脑里空空的。。
打了个电话个妈妈。。
好想念他。。
听着她在电话里唠叨，我的眼泪不知觉就流了下来。。
两次在机场的时候，我都没有哭。。
妈咪却一把眼泪一把涕的。。
其实我心里很舍不得她。。
但是我不想让她担心我，所以我每次都忍着了。。
不知不觉中在书上写了些东西。。
“只要咬紧牙关，
没有什么是过不去的。。。
不可以放弃，
不可以伤心，
不可以emo，
泪掉了下来，
就用手抹掉，
洗把脸，
重新努力。。
加油了！！！
努力奋斗 是为了将来的生活
所以 绝不放弃#
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Saturday, December 12, 2009
6 days more...
hureee.....6 days more...
wait for me ya Msia....i m coming back soon....
i miss Malaysia so much...especially the food....
hehe....
1.Laksa
2.Nasi Lemak
3.Dim sum
4.Hokkien mee
5.Loh Mee
6.Sushi
7.Kimchi
8.etc etc....
alot alot of food that i wanna eat...lol
=) veri happy when i think off i will be back in home soon
welll....but while waiting for the day to come..
I M HAVING MY DM EXAM IN 18TH.....
=(
what to do....mz study 1st b4 go bec lar....haiz...so sienz
this is how i sleep off every night...
Sharlyne:"once u lay down to read..i know that after 5 minutes u will fall asleep."SWT
wait for me ya Msia....i m coming back soon....
i miss Malaysia so much...especially the food....
hehe....
1.Laksa
2.Nasi Lemak
3.Dim sum
4.Hokkien mee
5.Loh Mee
6.Sushi
7.Kimchi
8.etc etc....
alot alot of food that i wanna eat...lol
=) veri happy when i think off i will be back in home soon
welll....but while waiting for the day to come..
I M HAVING MY DM EXAM IN 18TH.....
=(
what to do....mz study 1st b4 go bec lar....haiz...so sienz
this is how i sleep off every night...
Sharlyne:"once u lay down to read..i know that after 5 minutes u will fall asleep."SWT
Monday, November 16, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
post-exam syndrome
exam finished yesterday noon finally...mm,well,not reli over..
cos we have DADH practical next week...
and lots n lots exam in the coming 5 years...=(
anyway, the ppl around all are like exam finished dy...
went out for lunch, badminton, drama series, sleep.........
my mind was totally used up in the past few days...
tiring..
bec in home, cooked my favorite tomyam soup...yummy..
plan to carve my maxillary lateral incisor...aiks...so lazy...
drama 1st...
anddddddddddddddddd...............
when i open my eyes...its dy the next morning....haha...
i tertidur when i watched drama...lol
exam finish...and this means...i need to go bec into class again...
haiz...
having carving class later...show u wat have i carve
this is central incisor....
next will be lateral incisor...
will be facing all these for the next 5 yrs...
reli cant imagine
cos we have DADH practical next week...
and lots n lots exam in the coming 5 years...=(
anyway, the ppl around all are like exam finished dy...
went out for lunch, badminton, drama series, sleep.........
my mind was totally used up in the past few days...
tiring..
bec in home, cooked my favorite tomyam soup...yummy..
plan to carve my maxillary lateral incisor...aiks...so lazy...
drama 1st...
anddddddddddddddddd...............
when i open my eyes...its dy the next morning....haha...
i tertidur when i watched drama...lol
exam finish...and this means...i need to go bec into class again...
haiz...
having carving class later...show u wat have i carve
this is central incisor....
next will be lateral incisor...
will be facing all these for the next 5 yrs...
reli cant imagine
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
was walking from Histology class just now...with a friend from Malaysia...
we were talking along the way to back to hostel...talking bout watching drama...may be its because he is not closed to me...that's y he dun believe me that i m the kind that will watch drama till late night...and thus we start arguing bout that...and dunno how we started to argue bout being JPA student...i said that being JPA stud is veri stress...and being a private stud, of course his stand is he is more stress...and out of sudden....i shouted:"U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW STRESS AM I WHEN I CANT FLY TO AUSTRALIA...."
.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
this was kept in my heart since long long time ago...i promised myself i wont talk bout this again but today...i shouted it out...
it is the scar in my life...
that make me feel shame once before my friend...
that make me feel 'low standard' before the relatives..
that make me cry every time i pray to God...
that make me questioned God...
back in hostel...
i get this poem from sharlyne's book...
the title is "STAY THERE UNTIL I TELL YOU"
I'll stay where you have put me;i will Lord,
Though i wanted so badly to go,
I was eager to march with the "rank and file"'
Yes, I wanted to lead them, You know,
I planned to keep step to the music loud,
To cheer when the banner unfurled,
To stand in the midst of the fight straight and proud,
But I;ll stay where You've put me.
I'll stay where you have put me;i will work, dear Lord,
Though the field be narrow and small,
And the ground be neglected, and the stones lie thick,
And the there seems to be no life at all,
The field is Your own, only give me the seed,
I;ll sow it with never a fear,
I'll till the dry soil while I wait for the rain,
And rejoice when the green blades appear,
I'll work where You've put me.
I'll stay where you have put me;i will work, dear Lord,
I'll bear the day's burden and heat,
Always trusting You fully, when sunset has come,
I'll lay stalks of grain at Your feet,
And then, when my earth work is ended and done,
In the light of eternity's glow,
Life;s record all closed, I surely will find,
Its was better to stay than to go'
I'll stay where You've put me.
every time when i pray...
i know that, God has a plan...but what's the plan?...i m still seeking for it...
i understand that..its this small small trial...
and this little little incident...that make me grow...
we were talking along the way to back to hostel...talking bout watching drama...may be its because he is not closed to me...that's y he dun believe me that i m the kind that will watch drama till late night...and thus we start arguing bout that...and dunno how we started to argue bout being JPA student...i said that being JPA stud is veri stress...and being a private stud, of course his stand is he is more stress...and out of sudden....i shouted:"U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW STRESS AM I WHEN I CANT FLY TO AUSTRALIA...."
.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
this was kept in my heart since long long time ago...i promised myself i wont talk bout this again but today...i shouted it out...
it is the scar in my life...
that make me feel shame once before my friend...
that make me feel 'low standard' before the relatives..
that make me cry every time i pray to God...
that make me questioned God...
back in hostel...
i get this poem from sharlyne's book...
the title is "STAY THERE UNTIL I TELL YOU"
I'll stay where you have put me;i will Lord,
Though i wanted so badly to go,
I was eager to march with the "rank and file"'
Yes, I wanted to lead them, You know,
I planned to keep step to the music loud,
To cheer when the banner unfurled,
To stand in the midst of the fight straight and proud,
But I;ll stay where You've put me.
I'll stay where you have put me;i will work, dear Lord,
Though the field be narrow and small,
And the ground be neglected, and the stones lie thick,
And the there seems to be no life at all,
The field is Your own, only give me the seed,
I;ll sow it with never a fear,
I'll till the dry soil while I wait for the rain,
And rejoice when the green blades appear,
I'll work where You've put me.
I'll stay where you have put me;i will work, dear Lord,
I'll bear the day's burden and heat,
Always trusting You fully, when sunset has come,
I'll lay stalks of grain at Your feet,
And then, when my earth work is ended and done,
In the light of eternity's glow,
Life;s record all closed, I surely will find,
Its was better to stay than to go'
I'll stay where You've put me.
every time when i pray...
i know that, God has a plan...but what's the plan?...i m still seeking for it...
i understand that..its this small small trial...
and this little little incident...that make me grow...
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
am i wrong?
many things happen today...
ermmm...cant say its good and yet its not bad...
but for now...i feel that its good lar...
i m trying to maintain my feeling now...feel much better than few days ago...
din passive dy....talk quite a lot dy...
anf i think if remina see this, she will be hapi...
dun wori sis...i m fine...
about the 2nd thg...
mmm,i m not sure i have did the wrong thg...but...
i think i did correctly...may be it will make some1 feel disturbed...
but...i think
i m correct lar....
ermmm...cant say its good and yet its not bad...
but for now...i feel that its good lar...
i m trying to maintain my feeling now...feel much better than few days ago...
din passive dy....talk quite a lot dy...
anf i think if remina see this, she will be hapi...
dun wori sis...i m fine...
about the 2nd thg...
mmm,i m not sure i have did the wrong thg...but...
i think i did correctly...may be it will make some1 feel disturbed...
but...i think
i m correct lar....
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