its a saturday afternon..
weekend should be equal to hapi, relax, enjoy....
but i n now alone in the hostel..
jia jeng went back...mai and rafika too...
i m suppose to be used to it since this is not the first time..
yesterday was stil ok...dunknow why after lunch i was just so down...


emo-ing
try to calm myself down...watched dramas...watching drama is reli a good activity to relax for me...but after the drama finish, mood become worse...
try to talk to others...since nobody in the room, msn is my best fren then....
but the sad case is no1 that i can talk to...everybody seems like so busy with their own stuff...

and finally i cant tahan anymore...nobody to call and so i called my mum...she is busy too...alone in the shop..i tell her:" mummy, u do ur stuff..i dun bother u..will call u again at night..." but she jz said:" nvm...how r u gal....still alergy?taken ur lunch?etc etc...."she is talking BLA BLA BLA so much over there and never notice that her little daughther's tear was dropping here like hell...



jz realise one thing..
no matter how busy, ur family member will be always there to listen and talk to u...
no matter wat happen, ur family member will be around u to support u forever...



给妈妈的话。。
妈妈，
对不起。。
我觉得我以前真的很不乖。。
常常不在家。。
就算是难得回家，我也常常出去玩，没有陪你。。。
你每次有心事要告诉我，我却一副不想听的样子。。
可是每次我有事，你都很紧张我。。
替我担心这。。担心那。。
你放心。。
我会好好照顾自己的。。
让你担心，真的很对不起。。
妈妈，我好想你。。
还有一个月我就可以回家了。。
可是在家逗留个3个星期，就得飞印度读书。。
舍不得你和爸爸。。还有姐姐，哥哥和弟弟。。
你要学好如何上网，这样我们才能msn, skype...
你要加油，我也加油。。

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