random

this is reli random...none of any title come to my mind...i jz need to say out sumthg...cos i found that...i need to talk...
huh....reli miss msia...OMG, i think i started to be homesick...miss all the thg in msia...my famili, my fren, my food etc etc...
i wont consider myself as emo now...but i reli got a lot of feeling in my heart now...

I m in India..new environment, new languages, new faces, new culture, new faces...all new and all different...chat with my mum thru skype jz now...1st time feel like so good to talk to my mum and dad...last time when i m in msia, i may not bother to talk to them...but now, even thru skype, i can feel the warmness...can feel their worries... can feel their care...mummy, daddy, i miss u all....

I think i m not a rational person...i always do decision veri fast...and change it fast as well...but i did a decision today...i jz hope that i reli can keep it long...jz like wat i promise myself in the airport, i mz not cry..and i did it...
same here, i will keep my own promise this time...
wat is the promise?
oo...its not good to tell here...
Why i did the decision?
erm...i wouldn't tell much..wat i can tell about my feeling now is jz that...
when u feel like u can do sumthg, but at the end u found that u cant....
when u feel like u r having sumthg, but at the end u found tat u r actually not...
especially u work so hard all the time to do it, to have it...
u get wat i mean?
so, i decided..
may be its not worth to work so hard for it...
its not worth to wait for it...
i should give up this time...
after struggle for so long time...
i should...
i must...
and i can...
i believe

Actually i should do this decision much much earlier...and may be i did, but i din take it serious..and i think i m dy 20 now...i should responsible for every promise tat i have to myself and of course to others...

Gambateh Choo Sim Mee...12.17 am...22.07.2009...

今天睡醒后的你将是个不同的你。。
你可以的。。
你做得到。。
因为。。
你是朱欣媚。。。
没有事情可以难到你的。。
加油咯。。
冲。。冲。。冲。。
BDS。。
i m coming..
the only thing in mind now...
the cert of BDS...
study study study...
no more shopping
no more kidding
no more dreaming
serious serious serious....
study study study..




Mee'