6 days more...

hureee.....6 days more...
wait for me ya Msia....i m coming back soon....
i miss Malaysia so much...especially the food....
hehe....
1.Laksa
2.Nasi Lemak
3.Dim sum
4.Hokkien mee
5.Loh Mee
6.Sushi
7.Kimchi
8.etc etc....
alot alot of food that i wanna eat...lol
=) veri happy when i think off i will be back in home soon
welll....but while waiting for the day to come..
I M HAVING MY DM EXAM IN 18TH.....
=(
what to do....mz study 1st b4 go bec lar....haiz...so sienz
























this is how i sleep off every night...
Sharlyne:"once u lay down to read..i know that after 5 minutes u will fall asleep."SWT

"Give, and it will be given to you.."
This is what my almighty God promised...

and i will follow His word in Luke 6:28...
For I m His daughter, stand strong in awe of God...
As He will provide me the best plan...

Sienz...

Sienz...Sienz...Sienz...
haiz...

post-exam syndrome

exam finished yesterday noon finally...mm,well,not reli over..
cos we have DADH practical next week...
and lots n lots exam in the coming 5 years...=(
anyway, the ppl around all are like exam finished dy...
went out for lunch, badminton, drama series, sleep.........
my mind was totally used up in the past few days...
tiring..
bec in home, cooked my favorite tomyam soup...yummy..
plan to carve my maxillary lateral incisor...aiks...so lazy...
drama 1st...
anddddddddddddddddd...............
when i open my eyes...its dy the next morning....haha...
i tertidur when i watched drama...lol
exam finish...and this means...i need to go bec into class again...
haiz...
having carving class later...show u wat have i carve









this is central incisor....
next will be lateral incisor...
will be facing all these for the next 5 yrs...
reli cant imagine

was walking from Histology class just now...with a friend from Malaysia...
we were talking along the way to back to hostel...talking bout watching drama...may be its because he is not closed to me...that's y he dun believe me that i m the kind that will watch drama till late night...and thus we start arguing bout that...and dunno how we started to argue bout being JPA student...i said that being JPA stud is veri stress...and being a private stud, of course his stand is he is more stress...and out of sudden....i shouted:"U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW STRESS AM I WHEN I CANT FLY TO AUSTRALIA...."
.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
this was kept in my heart since long long time ago...i promised myself i wont talk bout this again but today...i shouted it out...
it is the scar in my life...
that make me feel shame once before my friend...
that make me feel 'low standard' before the relatives..
that make me cry every time i pray to God...
that make me questioned God...

back in hostel...
i get this poem from sharlyne's book...
the title is "STAY THERE UNTIL I TELL YOU"

I'll stay where you have put me;i will Lord,
Though i wanted so badly to go,
I was eager to march with the "rank and file"'
Yes, I wanted to lead them, You know,
I planned to keep step to the music loud,
To cheer when the banner unfurled,
To stand in the midst of the fight straight and proud,
But I;ll stay where You've put me.

I'll stay where you have put me;i will work, dear Lord,
Though the field be narrow and small,
And the ground be neglected, and the stones lie thick,
And the there seems to be no life at all,
The field is Your own, only give me the seed,
I;ll sow it with never a fear,
I'll till the dry soil while I wait for the rain,
And rejoice when the green blades appear,
I'll work where You've put me.

I'll stay where you have put me;i will work, dear Lord,
I'll bear the day's burden and heat,
Always trusting You fully, when sunset has come,
I'll lay stalks of grain at Your feet,
And then, when my earth work is ended and done,
In the light of eternity's glow,
Life;s record all closed, I surely will find,
Its was better to stay than to go'
I'll stay where You've put me.





every time when i pray...
i know that, God has a plan...but what's the plan?...i m still seeking for it...
i understand that..its this small small trial...
and this little little incident...that make me grow...

am i wrong?

many things happen today...
ermmm...cant say its good and yet its not bad...
but for now...i feel that its good lar...
i m trying to maintain my feeling now...feel much better than few days ago...
din passive dy....talk quite a lot dy...
anf i think if remina see this, she will be hapi...
dun wori sis...i m fine...

about the 2nd thg...
mmm,i m not sure i have did the wrong thg...but...
i think i did correctly...may be it will make some1 feel disturbed...
but...i think
i m correct lar....

What's wrong with me???

What's wrong with me....
i reli dunno...
recently feel that i m changing...
from an active Sim Mee to a very very very passive me....
i think i can feel that the person around me know that i m changing as well...
i jz like to keep quiet now...
and when others ask me:"what happen to u?"
"Tired"....the best reason is given...
huh...how can this happen?
mz find out the reason....

back from Goa

huu...jz back from Goa...having a great time there...
nice beach, delicious seafood,and cheap clothes...
reli relaxing..
back in Belgaum = back into Anatomy,Physiology, biochemistry, DADH,DM...
the time to start working hard...
gambateh neh...=)

有了？没了？

怎么一切一切都好像变了。。

动听的铃声，没有了。。
喜欢的声音，没有了。。
快乐的笑声，没有了。。
甜美的笑容，没有了。。
热闹的聚会，没有了。。
熟悉的背影，没有了。。
常在的支持，没有了。。
没有了。。

疏远的问候，有了。。
久违的眼泪，有了。。
陌生的面孔，有了。。
马虎的谈话，有了。。
敷衍的安慰，有了。。
僵硬的笑容，有了。。
冷冷的晚餐，有了
有了。。

当拥有了很多 “没有了”，也就失去了我所“有的”。。
拥有了很多的 “有了”， 也就失去了以前所没有的。。
有了。。没了。。
到底是有了？还是没了呢？

Is this life?

jz dun think and u will get fine...
jz dun see and u wont think...
jz dun care and u wont see...
jz dun ask and u wont care...

is this life? if this is not, then wat is life?

to all my friends

告訴我什麼事情讓你開心，
誰讓你煩心，
讓我來撫平，
有些話放在心裡心有靈犀，
不需要言語，
我就能感應，
能和知心朋友一起談心，
不在乎主題，
感覺永遠歷久彌新，
我明白全世界只有你，
最珍惜我的快樂傷心。

在朋友群中我是一個被動的人
我很少主動去找朋友或是跟朋友聯絡
幸好我還蠻幸運的有很多朋友都不嫌棄我
願意跟我交朋友願意跟我聯絡
甚至問我近來好嗎？

我真的很感謝
信箱中常常收到轉寄有關朋友的文章
雖然大部分信件是重複再重複
但對我來說意義是不會重複的
一封封的信代表著每一個朋友的關心

可能我們久沒聯絡
可能我們不常聯絡
可能我們常常聯絡
可能我們是知心的朋友
可能我們只是淡淡之交
可能我們只是點頭之交
不過你們寄了封關於朋友的信時
表示你們就認定我這個朋友

也許我生活中的喜怒哀樂
你們並不能常與我分享
你們並不能常在我左右
但只要我有困難；只要我呼救
不管多遠~~~你們還是會盡力地幫助我

我真的很感謝
我不是擅長說感謝的人
但你們對我的好我是知道的

其實我覺得你們都很客氣
都是付出而不要求回報
不過我還是希望當你們有困難時能告訴我
也許我能幫得上忙
也許我只能當個聽眾
不管如何有事一定要說出來

或者當你們想到我時
不要不好意思也不要害怕
一封僅隻字片語的e-mail
一通只是問好的電話
都是一種感動和溫馨

感謝你們把我當朋友
藉著這篇文章感謝及問候我的朋友們！

I got my parcel....

woo....i got my parcel...
hehe..after 2 weeks time, finally the parcel is here in Belgaum...
thx so much daddy n mummy...for running here n there to buy all the things and send the parcel...and the cost of sending is so expensive...
reli reli hapi when see all the malaysian stuff...
and i m eating the tomyam vege now...cooked using the maggi tomyam paste...yummy...

see, i got so many things from malaysia....
so so so hapi...
oh ya...when is my next parcel to cum?
hehe...

《你快乐我内伤》

歌手：蔡依林 专辑：花蝴蝶
蔡依林--你快乐我内伤
来不及爱到平淡
就要告别你狂热的纠缠
我还在享受爱得提心吊胆
你这个人忽然再与我无关
来不及甘苦共享
我就变成你和她的负担
你要我原谅我无法抵抗
你却忍不住心花怒放
你的快乐让我内伤
表情细胞已经死亡
所以笑得比哭还难看
我的大方让你释放
你不用像囚犯逃亡
难道爱过我是场苦难
是你火中送炭我还能怎样
我的自尊快将死亡
只为你不肯假装悲伤
我眼看你洒脱逃亡
眼泪已在你眼中埋葬

05/08/09-记得要忘记

歌曲：记得要忘记
歌手：s.h.e. 专辑：青春株式会社
曲:玉城千春中文词:施人诚编曲:锺兴民
在就要转身前突然又想起你
相遇的那天漾着微笑的你
那个微笑
还是很美丽
可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣
太耀眼的城市不适合看星星
就如同你的心不适合谈安定
谢谢你让我伤过心
学会爱情并非执迷
人改变不了改变不了的事情
记得要忘记忘记
我提醒自己
你已经是
人海中的一个背影
长长时光
我应该要有新的回忆
人无法决定会为谁动心
但至少可以决定放不放弃
我承认我
还是会爱着你
但我将永不再触碰这记忆
记得要忘记忘记
经过我的你
毕竟只是很偶像的那种相遇
不会不容易
我有一辈子
足够用来忘记
我还有一辈子
可以用来努力
我一定会忘记你

China Rocks

ya...China Rocks...
we are here for bout 18 days...all of us (the girls) cant stand for the mess's food anymore and all of us STOP MESS..
and thus, now we have to think for our meal everyday...breakfast,lunch and dinner...
and today's dinner was 'awesome'....
we ate outside...in the CHINA ROCKS REsTAURANT...

China Rocks Restaurant....















about 15 of us went to the restaurant...and actually we expect the Roasted Pork from the restaurant...but we din get it finally cos the owner scared of the H1N1 virus...*sigh*may be next time we will get it

the menu...looks great...



















the foods

the chicken Tomyum Soup...Rs50....the taste was ok but msia 1 is much more better



















the Sliced Fish With Swachuan Source...look abit....but the taste was ok



















well, i know all the dishes din look great but they r ok lar....this is prawn...

















this is our dessert...split banana...oh no..i should called it Split Pisang Goreng...cos the ice-cream is served with the fried banana...anyway, its nice..
















well, tats all the update this time...hope tat next sunday we stil can go for some good food...
looking forward...

simmee

update from india

hey there...nothing much...just some update from india...
classes will be started 'officially' next week...
however, this week we also got classes...
but just some introduction classes...
i m having 5 subjects in this first year...
ANATOMY, PHYSIOLOGY,BIO-CHEM,DENTAL ANATOMY & DENTAL HISTOLOGY AND DENTAL MATERIAL
Same as i was in AUSMAT...5 subjects as well...
but...
of course now is tougher lar...
feel like i din have much time...
monday to saturday...from 8 till 5 p.m....
sunday have church service...
huh...
no much time to study...
and the subjects all are super hard...
lol...
what to do??
i have choose the course...
watever happened...
i must stand strong..
to finish it...
lol
its time to study i think...
will update again de...
may be...
next week ba...then i will tell u all how is my classes and life here...k?
tc


mee

random

this is reli random...none of any title come to my mind...i jz need to say out sumthg...cos i found that...i need to talk...
huh....reli miss msia...OMG, i think i started to be homesick...miss all the thg in msia...my famili, my fren, my food etc etc...
i wont consider myself as emo now...but i reli got a lot of feeling in my heart now...

I m in India..new environment, new languages, new faces, new culture, new faces...all new and all different...chat with my mum thru skype jz now...1st time feel like so good to talk to my mum and dad...last time when i m in msia, i may not bother to talk to them...but now, even thru skype, i can feel the warmness...can feel their worries... can feel their care...mummy, daddy, i miss u all....

I think i m not a rational person...i always do decision veri fast...and change it fast as well...but i did a decision today...i jz hope that i reli can keep it long...jz like wat i promise myself in the airport, i mz not cry..and i did it...
same here, i will keep my own promise this time...
wat is the promise?
oo...its not good to tell here...
Why i did the decision?
erm...i wouldn't tell much..wat i can tell about my feeling now is jz that...
when u feel like u can do sumthg, but at the end u found that u cant....
when u feel like u r having sumthg, but at the end u found tat u r actually not...
especially u work so hard all the time to do it, to have it...
u get wat i mean?
so, i decided..
may be its not worth to work so hard for it...
its not worth to wait for it...
i should give up this time...
after struggle for so long time...
i should...
i must...
and i can...
i believe

Actually i should do this decision much much earlier...and may be i did, but i din take it serious..and i think i m dy 20 now...i should responsible for every promise tat i have to myself and of course to others...

Gambateh Choo Sim Mee...12.17 am...22.07.2009...

今天睡醒后的你将是个不同的你。。
你可以的。。
你做得到。。
因为。。
你是朱欣媚。。。
没有事情可以难到你的。。
加油咯。。
冲。。冲。。冲。。
BDS。。
i m coming..
the only thing in mind now...
the cert of BDS...
study study study...
no more shopping
no more kidding
no more dreaming
serious serious serious....
study study study..




Mee'

i m in india

hey everybody...have a long time din update my blog...i m so sori...i m lazy
well, i m in india now...settled down dy...u can go to my fb to c the photos..i dy upload there...
india is fine...raining season now...rains everyday...cold...
when we went out, we have our umbrella prepared in ur hand...and once there is rain, then we open it...lol...
i get wet many times dy...reli wet de i tell u...even u r holding the umbrella with u...
i dunknow wheather its bcos of the diff of the time in india and msia, i woke up early in the morning...5.30am...its dy 8 in msia...i guess is...
din reli sleep weel here...too cold...my blanket is not warm enuff...i woke up at 3.30 am last nigth and could'nt get sleep...cos it was too cold...thats sumthg come into my mind..."whose tat can hug me now, i m goin to marrige him..."
haha...weird thining...but luckily i went bec to sleep after i put on all my jackets, socks and scarf....
the food...was fine to me in the few days...but now i get fever dy..haiz...so, i din at the curry anymore...my last night dinner was rice+cucumber....lol
the water is ok so far...jz that i did hve cirit....jz a bit lar...so far ok...
oh ya...the punjabi suit is reli cheap here...i did 4...its just Rs2000...means like RM38...cheap right...hehe...anybody want it can tell me...will bring bec to u when i go bec msia....
wat else...so far jz like that...oh ya...i forget one important thg...
haiz...it is sad to tell that there is oni 11 guys in BDS...out of 100+...haiz...
well, its ok...
study 1st...
thats ll i think...will update u all again
bb
tc

Tamil Night

after the Hindi night, its the time for TAMIL NIGHT...
wow...its reli a awesome night...
cos i wore saree at that night..=)

try to pose like a indian...and again, they said i looked like an indian..am i?









dun think that its veri easy to wear saree...the aunty take 20 minutes to dressed me up in the saree...oh no...and guess wat...after 20 minutes, i dropped the saree...hoho...








i m sure that everyone that know how to wear saree can see that my saree is out of shape...haha












sare is actually a 6 meter long cloth balut around ur body...of course we wore a top inside...and you need a spacial skill to wear it...wear slowly and politely...dun like me...after 20 minutes, call my friend yugen:" yugen, come fast..saree jatuh..."hahaha...








this is part of my class...Ki3















"cheese"
















jia jeng and me...















family's potrait










naqi n me...














mama n me...


















azim n mee...

















hehe...






wow...and the 2nd night ended..but....
our 3rd night is coming...next week...kannada night...looking forward ya

Sing k...

if u know me well,for sure u will know that i love to sing k veri veri veri much...hehe...wherever i go, i will join the group of people there to sing k...

i have groups of good friends that like to sing k...1st group is from sp..but i seldom can meet them now..so we seldom sing k together now..; 2nd group from INTEC's group 1219..but they are now some in Aus,some in NZ and some in Kuching..so, i think its veri hard and nearly imposibble to sing with them liao...and NOW....wakakkkaka...i found the 3rd group...from KTT.........yupee =)

super excited de me...ajak jingying and junjun to take stupid pic with me..hehe


this is the new KTT group...12 of us sing in a room...they are so awesome...


everybody say "cheese".....


at first, everybody was still normal..sitting on the sofa..


eating the food...yummy...


as usual..i started to stand on the sofa...


then ester follow me...2 person are standing up now...


now are three...jing ying also joined us....


and finally...everyone goes crazy....haha


oh no...feel like sing k now...

that was a great outing with KTT fren...they are awesome...hope that our next trip is coming soon...=)

its a saturday afternon..
weekend should be equal to hapi, relax, enjoy....
but i n now alone in the hostel..
jia jeng went back...mai and rafika too...
i m suppose to be used to it since this is not the first time..
yesterday was stil ok...dunknow why after lunch i was just so down...


emo-ing
try to calm myself down...watched dramas...watching drama is reli a good activity to relax for me...but after the drama finish, mood become worse...
try to talk to others...since nobody in the room, msn is my best fren then....
but the sad case is no1 that i can talk to...everybody seems like so busy with their own stuff...

and finally i cant tahan anymore...nobody to call and so i called my mum...she is busy too...alone in the shop..i tell her:" mummy, u do ur stuff..i dun bother u..will call u again at night..." but she jz said:" nvm...how r u gal....still alergy?taken ur lunch?etc etc...."she is talking BLA BLA BLA so much over there and never notice that her little daughther's tear was dropping here like hell...



jz realise one thing..
no matter how busy, ur family member will be always there to listen and talk to u...
no matter wat happen, ur family member will be around u to support u forever...



给妈妈的话。。
妈妈，
对不起。。
我觉得我以前真的很不乖。。
常常不在家。。
就算是难得回家，我也常常出去玩，没有陪你。。。
你每次有心事要告诉我，我却一副不想听的样子。。
可是每次我有事，你都很紧张我。。
替我担心这。。担心那。。
你放心。。
我会好好照顾自己的。。
让你担心，真的很对不起。。
妈妈，我好想你。。
还有一个月我就可以回家了。。
可是在家逗留个3个星期，就得飞印度读书。。
舍不得你和爸爸。。还有姐姐，哥哥和弟弟。。
你要学好如何上网，这样我们才能msn, skype...
你要加油，我也加油。。

=欣媚=

HINDI NIGHT KI 2009

last night was our KI HINDI NIght...altough lotsa thgs happen b4 the show, but luckly we stil manage to perform well in the night..it was my first time o wear punjabi suit..my classmates said i looked like a chindian (mix of indian and chinese) when idressed up in punjabi...hehe

wat do u think???am i looked like a chindian???

ester beauty and mee...dressed in punjadi....

'pretty' wei ming and mee....he is known as pretty boy in KTT...reli pretty

my cute mama maisara...

kelvin and mee...

nash...my class rep...a nice guy

jing ying, ester and mee....

andrew and mee....acting cute....=)